chara

first touch at rooftop

thank God

I don't know what I was thinking about, or maybe after my head hardly hit the ground or whatever. there's something flashing in my mind, it's about me, my thought. that frequently I think that my life's so suck. I just have had a static life in my lifetime. I want a better and better life with people and lot of things around me but I have just realized that I already have a more-than-enough life seeing people in the streets.
they thanked God of life that God had given. they live with everything they have, with just a few things they can enjoy their life. even they don't want to have a lot of things. they feel enough with everything they have, and ya, they have thanked God
I'm ashamed to God of what I've done these time. I should sometimes think through their mind, so certainly I would thank God in every breath that I have had a beautiful life God have given to me

T H A N K G O D :-)

collide

with the painful headache, I wanna write and tell you what I did scream when my head's hitting the basketball court then everything became darker and darker and I just couldn't easily open my eyes.... I said:

1. astagfirullah!
2. mamaaah!
3. papah!
4. mas danang!
5. dissa!
6. 2+2=4

hahahahaha okay, I can still remember everything in my life :p

words

"Muda Bukan Apa-apa,
Tua Punya Segalanya"

Mohammad Erfan Hanindyo

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owl city - vanilla twilight

the stars lean down to kiss you
and I lie awake and miss you
pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
but I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you dear
'cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
but it's not the same without you
because it takes two to whisper quietly

the silence isn't so bad
'till I look at my hands and feel sad
'cause the spaces between my fingers
are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
though I haven't slept in two days
'cause cold nostalgia
chills me to the bone

but drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
waist-deep in thought because
when I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

as many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

when violet eyes get brighter
and heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

and I'll forget the world that I knew
but I swear I won't forget you
oh if my voice could reach back trough the past
I'd whisper in your ear
oh darling I wish you were here

when I miss somebody, this song make it worse
so I listen to it whenever
I
miss
you

missed

here it is! 12th grader spare time. time after soooooo many efforts, prays, tests & pressure. all we had to do is study study and study, almost all of us took nonscholastic courses. yes, we had to force ourselves to understand the lessons (as we did nothing in 10th & 11th grade lol).

and then we were facing the series of exam exercise. from the 1st, 2nd, 3rd national exam exercise, the national exam exercise by region & province. I had done 'em all and what I felt that time is bored, yeah because there are too many exercises actually :B

in side lines of 'em I had to face the college entrance exam, a very hard exam I had done ever. and thank God I could pass it, Alhamdulillah :)
----I had an unforgotten experience in this moment: first, I thought I could stand these pressure of facing the whole exam. but I found myself in a-very-bad depression and the good part was I didn't realize that. and finally I felt the sickness, I got a bad headache-stomachache for a few days emm I meant from the exam until the revenue announcement. and after I heard that I had passed, tadaaa, that disease disappeared. it's like an odd syndrome & that was the first time I felt like that----

the, the last exam... yeah this was it, NATIONAL EXAM! oh my, I knew that it was the day and what I did was nothing, the same as I did when facing the exam exercise. oh what was I thinking that time? I only studied hard in biology, and in the others I only read the exam exercise papers. how silly? and alhamdulillah, I could undergo 'em BUT, I wasn't sure I could get a good mark on 'em LOL

national exam passed, time to pray, begging God all the best for all I had done with. a day before the graduation announcement, I felt the syndrome again. lol I wasn't sure I could be graduated remembering what I had done while facing the exam & the day's passed and I didn't find one of my teacher came to my house to tell me that I hadn't passed the exam, then I went to school and cheer myself, I had graduated :D :D :D <~ very happy, thank God!

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now that I'm idleness, I have nothing to do, I'm starting missing those hectic parts, it's like, I wanna go back to the past, wanna attend the classes, meet the teachers, friends, lessons. I wanna do what I have done with my mates, the struggle, together. ya, I really miss those parts