missed

here it is! 12th grader spare time. time after soooooo many efforts, prays, tests & pressure. all we had to do is study study and study, almost all of us took nonscholastic courses. yes, we had to force ourselves to understand the lessons (as we did nothing in 10th & 11th grade lol).

and then we were facing the series of exam exercise. from the 1st, 2nd, 3rd national exam exercise, the national exam exercise by region & province. I had done 'em all and what I felt that time is bored, yeah because there are too many exercises actually :B

in side lines of 'em I had to face the college entrance exam, a very hard exam I had done ever. and thank God I could pass it, Alhamdulillah :)
----I had an unforgotten experience in this moment: first, I thought I could stand these pressure of facing the whole exam. but I found myself in a-very-bad depression and the good part was I didn't realize that. and finally I felt the sickness, I got a bad headache-stomachache for a few days emm I meant from the exam until the revenue announcement. and after I heard that I had passed, tadaaa, that disease disappeared. it's like an odd syndrome & that was the first time I felt like that----

the, the last exam... yeah this was it, NATIONAL EXAM! oh my, I knew that it was the day and what I did was nothing, the same as I did when facing the exam exercise. oh what was I thinking that time? I only studied hard in biology, and in the others I only read the exam exercise papers. how silly? and alhamdulillah, I could undergo 'em BUT, I wasn't sure I could get a good mark on 'em LOL

national exam passed, time to pray, begging God all the best for all I had done with. a day before the graduation announcement, I felt the syndrome again. lol I wasn't sure I could be graduated remembering what I had done while facing the exam & the day's passed and I didn't find one of my teacher came to my house to tell me that I hadn't passed the exam, then I went to school and cheer myself, I had graduated :D :D :D <~ very happy, thank God!

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now that I'm idleness, I have nothing to do, I'm starting missing those hectic parts, it's like, I wanna go back to the past, wanna attend the classes, meet the teachers, friends, lessons. I wanna do what I have done with my mates, the struggle, together. ya, I really miss those parts