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"Muda Bukan Apa-apa,
Tua Punya Segalanya"

Mohammad Erfan Hanindyo

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owl city - vanilla twilight

the stars lean down to kiss you
and I lie awake and miss you
pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
but I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you dear
'cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
but it's not the same without you
because it takes two to whisper quietly

the silence isn't so bad
'till I look at my hands and feel sad
'cause the spaces between my fingers
are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
though I haven't slept in two days
'cause cold nostalgia
chills me to the bone

but drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
waist-deep in thought because
when I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

as many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

when violet eyes get brighter
and heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

and I'll forget the world that I knew
but I swear I won't forget you
oh if my voice could reach back trough the past
I'd whisper in your ear
oh darling I wish you were here

when I miss somebody, this song make it worse
so I listen to it whenever
I
miss
you

missed

here it is! 12th grader spare time. time after soooooo many efforts, prays, tests & pressure. all we had to do is study study and study, almost all of us took nonscholastic courses. yes, we had to force ourselves to understand the lessons (as we did nothing in 10th & 11th grade lol).

and then we were facing the series of exam exercise. from the 1st, 2nd, 3rd national exam exercise, the national exam exercise by region & province. I had done 'em all and what I felt that time is bored, yeah because there are too many exercises actually :B

in side lines of 'em I had to face the college entrance exam, a very hard exam I had done ever. and thank God I could pass it, Alhamdulillah :)
----I had an unforgotten experience in this moment: first, I thought I could stand these pressure of facing the whole exam. but I found myself in a-very-bad depression and the good part was I didn't realize that. and finally I felt the sickness, I got a bad headache-stomachache for a few days emm I meant from the exam until the revenue announcement. and after I heard that I had passed, tadaaa, that disease disappeared. it's like an odd syndrome & that was the first time I felt like that----

the, the last exam... yeah this was it, NATIONAL EXAM! oh my, I knew that it was the day and what I did was nothing, the same as I did when facing the exam exercise. oh what was I thinking that time? I only studied hard in biology, and in the others I only read the exam exercise papers. how silly? and alhamdulillah, I could undergo 'em BUT, I wasn't sure I could get a good mark on 'em LOL

national exam passed, time to pray, begging God all the best for all I had done with. a day before the graduation announcement, I felt the syndrome again. lol I wasn't sure I could be graduated remembering what I had done while facing the exam & the day's passed and I didn't find one of my teacher came to my house to tell me that I hadn't passed the exam, then I went to school and cheer myself, I had graduated :D :D :D <~ very happy, thank God!

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now that I'm idleness, I have nothing to do, I'm starting missing those hectic parts, it's like, I wanna go back to the past, wanna attend the classes, meet the teachers, friends, lessons. I wanna do what I have done with my mates, the struggle, together. ya, I really miss those parts

such an awesome story

Inilah ungkapan kekaguman sekaligus pesan yang disampaikan oleh Joana Francis (seorang penulis dan wartawan asal AS), kepada perempuan-perempuan Muslim di Libanon saat negara itu diserang oleh Israel dalam perang tahun 2006 lalu. Perempuan yang menganut agama Kristen itu menuliskan ungkapan hatinya tersebut dalam situs Crescent and the Cross, dalam tulisan bertajuk “Kepada Saudariku Para Muslimah”.

Di tengah serangan Israel ke Libanon dan “perang melawan teror” yang dipropagandakan Zionis, dunia Islam kini menjadi pusat perhatian di setiap rumah di AS.

Aku menyaksikan pembantaian, kematian dan kehancuran yang menimpa rakyat Libanon, tapi aku juga melihat sesuatu yang lain; Aku melihat kalian (para muslimah). Aku menyaksikan perempuan-perempuan yang membawa bayi atau anak-anak yang mengelilingi mereka. Aku menyaksikan bahwa meski mereka mengenakan pakaian yang sederhana, kecantikan mereka tetap terpancar dan kecantikan itu bukan sekedar kecantikan fisik semata.

Aku merasakan sesuatu yang aneh dalam diriku; aku merasa iri. Aku merasa gundah melihat kengerian dan kejahatan perang yang dialami rakyat Libanon, mereka menjadi target musuh bersama kita. Tapi aku tidak bisa memungkiri kekagumanku melihat ketegaran, kecantikan, kesopanan dan yang paling penting kebahagian yang tetap terpancar dari wajah kalian.

Kelihatannya aneh, tapi itulah yang terjadi padaku, bahkan di tengah serangan bom yang terus menerus, kalian tetap terlihat lebih bahagia dari kami ( perempuan AS) di sini karena kalian menjalani kehidupan yang alamiah sebagai perempuan. Di Barat, kaum perempuan juga menjalami kehidupan seperti itu sampai era tahun 1960-an, lalu kami juga dibombardir dengan musuh yang sama. Hanya saja, kami tidak dibombardir dengan amunisi, tapi oleh tipu muslihat dan korupsi moral.

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as always

If we prioritize our interests of God first, our worldly interests will go along

God is the only one who have made us, we’re all God’s, in God we’ll then come back. we’re just no one without God’s mightiness. every strengths are God’s. so give everything we have back to God.

my daddy’s simple words that he always said to me. that it’s so absolute. so I say good luck to myself to do this words.

GOOD LUCK!